So much going on!!!

So much has been going on lately!!

I am still SUPER giddy about getting engaged!

We have actually started to do some planning

We have the date and place set, November 06,2010 at a resort out here in AZ.

I met with the catering manager today to go over where I want the ceremony and reception and it made me even more excited, if that is possible.

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I decided on my colors too, I wanted something that would look nice since it would be fall but nothing that would look too much like fall.

I decided on chocolate brown, ivory & champagne. I think they will go nice together and they will look good at the place where it is all going down too.

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Now we are figuring out a budget and all that "fun" stuff.

I bought the invitations today and I love them. They are simple and elegant, best thing is the price $40 for 100. We are inviting approx 100 people and they came with several test sheets so it is perfect. I will be doing them myself but it should not be too hard. I just need to come up with some save the dates, but that should not be too hard. I am also going to be making the centerpieces myself, so any ideas are welcome!!

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Gosh I feel like I am just rambling on but I can't help. Oh and I have lost 10 pounds woooo hoooo!!! I am going to put off buying a dress as long as I can, of course giving myself enough time for alterations and all that. On a not so happy note my ring has been gone since Saturday, poor thing is off getting sized and I miss her. Am I pathetic or what? I don't care, I am happy and in love. Life is good!

He asked me to marry him!!!!!!!!

Josh asked me to marry him today!!!

Ahhhhh I am soooooo excited!!!

I love my ring! He was worried I would not like it because he thinks it is too small.

He said down the line he will get me a bigger one. I do not care what size it is. It is my ring and its from him and that is all that matters!!!

Gosh, it is about time :-)

A few makeovers, sorta

Please check out Metamorphosis Monday At Between Naps On The Porch

I really have not got to doing any projects this past week, it has been a crazy one.

I did get to a thing or 2. Nothing major but it makes a difference in the house.

This is not really a makeover, I didn't really do anything to the objects in the picture, just arranged them on a wall together. This was had nothing on it before. It looked so bare. I could not figure out what to put there and all of this seemed perfect to go there. I like how it is all set up .

These picture frames are from This post, so are the shelf and mirror from above. I just cut out some scrapbook paper that I had and put it in. These are all the colors that are in our house.

Here is a picture to show where they are hung in the kitchen. It is kind of a odd spot and nothing has ever been put there but I like how it looks.

Well that is all I got for now. I will be doing some more projects all through-out this week so stay tuned!

Bad Day Followup & A Piece Of Me

First off thank you so much to you all for your advice.

After much thought and long talks with people close to me I have decided to quit.

I do not like the fact that I am quitting something but I also can not stay in a environment that I feel is not good for me. I am EXTREMELY thankful that I was even given the chance to have a job there, as I do know how hard it is to get a job anywhere.

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Another thing, which is super hard for me to say on here, is there is more to me needing to quit this job then I previously stated.

Looking at the picture that I have up you most likely can not tell but I am a very big girl. I have had a weight issue pretty much all of my life. When I say big girl, trust me I mean big not. Not one of those girls the weighs 150 and considers themselves morbidly obese. I am WAY bigger then that. With that all being said, shamefully, it is hard for me to stand on my feet for 8 hours a day. Because of my weight my body can not take me standing for that long. Yesterday after 2-3 hours I could already feel the affects of this. My whole body hurt, I was extremely hot. All around it was not a good thing. I wanted to cry.

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I cam home and was in so much pain that all I could do was cry. Not only was is physical pain, it was a lot of emotional pain too. I cried to Josh and told him why it was so hard for me at work and he just said he loves me for me and it does not matter what I look like. He does want me to lose weight only for health reasons and so I feel better about myself.

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This post is actually extremely hard for me to write. I am almost in tears. I can not really stand to look at myself in the mirror. I do not think I am a ugly person, I promise I am not conceited. I do not like the way I look or feel at all. I feel bad for Josh because I feel like I embarrass him when we are out together, even though he tells me time and time again that he does not feel that way. I am ashamed of myself. I am embarrassed of myself. I am sad.

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Last night I got to talking to a girl I used to work with at a call center. She pretty much is in the same boat as me and weighs pretty close to what I do. Her doctor put her on a supervised diet. She has been on it for 3 weeks now and has already lost 24 pounds. She gave me all the information her doctor gave her about the diet. On Monday I am going to start this new lifestyle. I can no longer feel like this. I can not stand it for one minute. I don't want to die young because of weight and my primary doctor said if I don't do something about this sooner then later I may not see the age 40. I don't want to die, there is too much I want to do with my life.

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I know some of you may not understand what I am going through. Some of you may even think that I chose to be this way and all I do is sit and eat my day away. I promise that is not it. I know I am the only one to blame for this. I also know I am the only one that can turn this around. This is such a hard thing to do. I can not believe I wrote all of this but in a way it makes me feel a tad bit better.

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Thanks for reading a little piece from my heart. Now you all know one of, if not the main, reasons why I quit.

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Please don't judge me. I do that enough to myself everyday

Bad day

That is what I had today. I had a horrible day. This job is not what I thought it would be at all. I figured it would be super easy, and it actually is. Let me explain. I get there and the manager told me that today would be a training day for me and if I felt comfortable enough I would be on the register for a little bit. Well he hands me some folder and said this is the training manual so read it or you can just go through it while you are on the register in training mode.

I figured I would read it and then go over it with him and he would explain everything to me. Nope, not even close. I was basically left to figure everything out on my own. He told me to just grab some items from the store and play around with ringing them up. He said he did not know how I was supposed to sign off the register so I would have to ask someone how to since he has never had to sign off. Hmm okay. So I am standing at this register left completely alone trying to figure out what to do. I was so lost but since it is pretty easy I eventually figured it out.

Now everyone knows CVS has all these different deals and sales all the time and there are a ton of coupons out there. Tons of people take advantage of them, as they should. I have never shopped there and had no idea how all of that works. Nobody explained to me their policy with coupons or anything. They never explained the programs they have or anything. I was left to tr and figure it out on my own.

They had some girl working in the photo department that was also working the registers and I guess she was supposed to help me, again no one told me anything to do at all. I asked her some questions, which she apparently thought I should already know but seeing how no one trained me in any way shape or form I had no idea. She then told me to get on the register and ring up the customer, mind you right in from of the customer, so I could not just say I was not ready to yet.

I was basically on the register for 6 hours by myself with no help. I felt like a total idiot having no idea what I was doing and taking forever. I was sitting down in the break room and the asst. manager came and sat down and I asked her how long I was supposed to work today since the store manager never told me. She said she thought the manager only wanted me to work 4-5 hours. Well I was way past that time frame. I asked her if I should just clock out or whatever and she said if you can stay longer then stay if not then go. I had to ask how to sign out since I was never taught. I quickly got in my car and left.

I came home and cried like a big fat baby. Today made me feel like a complete idiot. I was so lost and confused and had no idea what was going on. The manager asked ME what time I was working tomorrow and I was thinking to myself shouldn't you be the one telling me when I am supposed to work?

I told Josh all of this and he said I should just quit. I really want to but I really want to bring in extra money. And by the way I am considered part time but he is going to schedule me 2 hours under what full time would be considered each week. Sounds like they are just trying to get out of having to give me benefits. Today started out good and now I just want to crawl in a hole....